Get Away from the Past, Keep Moving On. Owl City Rox, Forever
Here i am, blogging in a discrete blog which no one else knows, other than those who link my blog to theirs. Times flies, 11 more months to go before i ORD. It happens so fast that i didn't realise it sometimes. Yeah, i still have long hell months to go, especially when i am working under my superiors,who are actually indians. I hate working under indians.
Anyway, my weekends are pretty simple. I will always try to recup sleep loss and will go online to deejay. Sometimes, i am too lazy to go out and simply rejected my friend's invitation out. I am kind of like stuck at home, intentionally. I would always go out and take a breather,going to the nearby shopping malls for some exciting-aracade mania, where i can get to show off my dancing moves on the DDR machine. Causeway Points & Sun Plaza's DDR machine, sadly, are spoilt, so the only place that i go often now is northpoint. Usually if i have time during weekdays, i will book out to play at Tampines Mall.
Trying hard to find Ocean Eyes. What's Ocean Eyes? It's actually an album, produced by singer-songwriter Owl City (real name Adam Young). Every song in the album means differently. I will always do an online search to find out the meaning of the song in his album as his written-lyrics are hard to understand. Fireflies & Vanilla Twilight, two of the best songs that i have heard, definitely in my entire life. It triggers my memories, back in 2008, where all the unfortunate and remorseful incidents have occurred. My heart goes with the flow of the music, my ears listening to every notes from the electronic piano/synthesizer of Adam's. Tears almost escaped from my eyes each time i hear his songs.
Struggling every moves,i look forward to the brighter future ahead of me. For now, i am still searching for the end of the tunnel.
Love dies, Character changes, Emo Surges, Ego Disappears.
I shall hidden my blog from now on. It is a decision made because simply there are two reasons: Firstly, my wish of converting this blog into a private diary, for me to view and then flashback, perhaps maybe for someone who has visited my blog before, or somehow able to access into the page. The only way that you can access my blog is via other people's blog or from my facebook profile. Secondly, no point publishing the blog and getting lots of complain and emotional doubt about it. It is factual that after i publish a blog, i could sense that some people will be commenting about the issue that i posted on my blog, which i feel rather uncomfortable sometimes. Usually, an individual will type out on his blog to reflect their feelings but sometimes, i would not want people to know that i am feeling that way.
Alright, back to life. For the past few weekends, i have been staying at home, watching movies after movies and i do wonder sometimes why nobody ask me out!It's kind of like boring hiding in my room doing deejaying and watching movie for most of the day. I REALLY want to go out, but please don't jio me for clubbing. I find out 2 reasons. Firstly, out of contact. Girls go to university, while guys have their own programme, it is rather hard to come out together as a group. Or perhaps maybe because they are really busy doing something? ANYWAY... I strongly think that it is the second reason, which is i think, quite sensitive. Something to do with personal popularity and character.
Being in fame is what most people want to be, being it be among classmates or even going to hollywood to become the next American Got Talent. I didn't stand out as compared to anyone else back in college, because sometimes i feel very introvert and maybe perhaps refuse to speak up due to overtire from studies and CCA. Although i know that there will surely be the negatively side of being famous, i strongly love to be in fame. hohoho. Anyway, i wasn't fated to be famous, or maybe one day, i can be. - just to say - A normal character will not stand out, as compared to A weird or drastic character. Now, i choose to hide in one corner and meditate. Also, i am starting to think about which way i should go. I might choose the path of being a sport professional, or DDR professional, to even a common job, for example a teacher. Up to now, i feel that i haven't fulfill what i want to do during my ns life. I will really want to list down what i want to do.
Maybe this post:
Pickboys' to-do-list during ns life.
- Japanese Language - Cooking - Driving Course - To Get NASSA Goldstar. - FAME? - Change
Change seems to be very vague. Let me specify, the change that i refer to, is character. I will not want to be a bastard, neither do i want to be too introvert person.
Before i start commenting about my life for the past few months, let me reveal my favourite top 10 song for now.
For the week : September 12 2009 - Scroll down somemore to view. Sorry can't fix the big space in between.
TW
LW
Artists
Song Title
1
2
Cobra Starship Ft. Leighton Meeson
Good Girls Gone Bad
2
4
Evan Taubenfled
Boys Meet Girls
3
1
The Fray
Never Say Never
4
7
Pitbull
I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho)
5
3
Beyonce
Halo
6
10
Black Eyed Peas
i Gotta Feeling
7
5
Linkin Park
New Divide
8
NEW
Disney Friends For Change
Send It On
9
NEW
3OH3!
Don't Trust Me
10
6
Jordin Sparks
Battlefield
The song that i am introducting is : Owl City - Fireflies.
A work by Adam Young, the songs resemble the feeling which i was in love for the first time. I feel that Owl City shouldn't have distributed his single free on itunes, because he can sell this particular single pretty well.
That's it. For those people who view this post, JIO ME OUT. I am bored. I am charged with full energy, ready to get high anytime out there. =)
During the time when i isolate myself from the rest of the schoolmates, i tried to find my way back to who i am before. I would use to take a very long afternoon nap to try to forget about what has happened, or even try to stone all the way. It didn't work at all. Stress intensify the problems which i was facing at that time. I was totally defeated. One day, i sat down in the room, thinking of ways which would help me to cope with the emotional feeling and stress from work. Somehow, i told myself to relax my whole body and do some slight meditation.
Slowly, i was able to get to who am i, luckily just before the major A.
At that point, i told myself not to end this precious friendship, meaning to the extent that I do not even contact him anymore. My mind strongly urges me to call him, so indeed i did. It did go quite well and gradually, we started talking to each other again and we are friends again. Although it was not as close as what it was used to be before, but i was still very satisfied to have a good friend like him. Up to now, we are still in contact with each other.
Experience shaped a person's character, or even changes it, and I agree because i am the experiment. An hyper character of myself, after going through a series of tests and problem, transformed. Now, i am a much different person, i am much calmer than before.
=)
Alright. That's my past.
Present:
Firstly, i must apologise to all my fellow coursemates, especially to those who i had been naggy towards with. If i did offend you, please voice out and i try to tone down. Haha. Anyway, my course sergeant major is getting more and more naggy nowadays. I was kenna nagged at for not filling my water parade file properly for 45 minutes. I could swear that I will just faint if he continues for another 2 hours or so, in which he did sometimes. Hahaz.
That's it for now. There should be a part 2 coming up soon, maybe tmr.
Booked out today at about 4pm, my mind is totally blank. For the past few days, i have been attending ranges which in the end i didn't get to shoot any rounds. Why is that so? This is because i am now training to become a specialist, so what i basically do is to either organise details, be a safety specs, or help the SSC trainee to collect rations. I love the ride to the M203 range on a 1.5 tonner today, because "when the cold wind blows", it feels like as if you are inside the air-con room.
11.01. That's my 2.4km timing. Around one and a half month ago, it was 9.43. That's a massive drop man. I think i have to start training man.
Comments given on my blog, saying that i have put too much emphasis about music and DDR, and not on others. Ok, i will take note and try to balance the content then.
-BREAK- ARGHH trying to think what to write about.
Here's a song for you guys : Tegomasu - Tanabata Matsuri
Deserted - that's the word that i use to describe the blog. Certainly, I haven't been blogging for the pass 2 month plus. Things going on pretty well, i should say and there are a few major incidents which i came across during the 2 month plus(not going to list out in this blog entry).
I came across this article in stomp about "Soldier fools around and drops roll of masking tape from moving 3-tonner" reported by stomper, NationalPride. Here's a quote from him:
“This took place yesterday along Upper Changi Road towards the Singapore Expo. We were in a vehicle at a traffic light junction and were listening to the national day song ‘Count Me Singapore’ on the radio.
“My three kids and I were humming to the song when suddenly we saw these soldiers in front of us, sleeping in the truck in broad daylight on a busy road.
“My kids said, ‘Look Mum, the soldiers are sleeping. How to count on them?’
“Worst still, the soldier on the left was listening happily to his MP3 and he was playing with a roll of masking tape. He threw the tape at the other two soldiers to wake them up. The tape missed them and it fell onto the road.
“I wonder how the government discipline such soldiers.
“What if they fall out of the trucks and the on-coming cars hit them?”
Yeah, i think that this stomper has nothing better to do on the internet, except for reporting this kind of stupid shit. We are here to serve national service to protect our nation and yet some Singaporeans do not appreciate what we have done so that they can fucking sleep peacefully at night. They really want to complain until we all kenna extras nd then they are satisfied. BTW, i think he/she can't differentiate what's a 3-tonner and 5-tonner. AND, what significance has listening to the song 'count on me singapore' has got to do with the article. NO RELATIVE SIGNIFICANT. i think he doesn't know how to write a freaking article.
P.S : The personnels on board are people whom i don't know. =)
I scanned through the stomp pages, under the section called singapore seen. Recently, there have been a lot of articles involving secondary school students inflamming each other, or secondary school students making out at public places. Nowadays, i think it will be very difficult to find a secluded place to make out sia. Pity them sia.
21 Guns, still continue to stuck in my head, even 2 months after its release. This song is quite significant to part of my terrible life back in JC. Meaningful lyrics with emo voices, and no later, Megan Fox will appear in front of me =P.
Here are some of the songs that you might consider listening.
J-POP
AKB48 - Namida Surprise. Namida - A person's name.
Meisa Kuroki - Shock -Love Game- (The next Namie Amuro)
After 12 weeks of grueling course, i finally passed out as a true sea soldier. Alright, I have to follow law by law, so for those who want to know what the course is all about, then please ask me personally, before i kenna charge for blogging about SAF in camp training. Hahaz. The 20th batch went through lots of hardship, chao keng time and sweat lots of litres of water. This course has nurtured me to become a much tougher person compared to before. Also, it gives me the opportunity to prove my leadership as an IC, even though i did screw up some times. Anyway, thanks to 20th Shield section, and sergeant Gerald and Jian Sheng for helping me to cope with the course. See you guys, soon.
One year and 3 months ago. That was the time when my life crumbled. My relationship and best-friendship were gone. It took me 6 months to recover from the disaster. The recovery is slow, and during that time, I reflected on myself. I still could remember at times, i couldn't concentrate on my studies, resulting in the plummeting of my results. I still could also remember the times when i use to sleep 9 to 10 hours a day, just to escape from that suffering. I still could remember the days, when i sit in front of the computer and open my folder which is full of mp3, and blast songs into my eardrum. I still could remember the days in which my soul is not where it is always be. I still could remember the feeling after she put down the phone, during valentine day. I still could remember the feeling at that time when i had decided to disregard him as a best friend. It suck. It did suck. However, all those unfortunate incident had re-built my character. I have learnt to be more calm as compared to last time, and know how to handle my emotion really well. And that's who i am now...
Green Day - 21 Guns
Do you know what's worth fighting for When it's not worth dying for? Does it take you breath away And you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out the pride? And you look for a place to hide? Did someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins...
One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky You and I
When you're at the end of the road And you lost all sense of control And your thoughts have taken their toll When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul Your faith walks on broken glass And the hangover doesn't pass Nothing's ever built to last You're in ruins
One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky You and I
Did you try to live on your own When you burned down the house and home? Did you stand too close to the fire? Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die And you can't get another try Something inside this heart has died You're in ruins
One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky You and I
